beach

fear, hope, and reality.

Beach, people can feel how calm and comfortable that place is by hearing that words, the comfort of sitting on the sand, enjoying the breeze, and hearing the sound of the waves.

Supposedly, beach is a calm place, right? Beach is a beautiful place that is loved by anyone who visits it.

I know that beach can actually be a very calming place, helping us to forget all the problems for a moment that are in our mind, but it's a shame for me because beach is a place that will probably always remind me of painful memories.

In the past, beach was a place where I always went to get away from all problems for a short time. Beach is a place that acts like a medicine for me. On the beach, I sat on the sand, enjoying the calm breeze with the sound of the waves. Occasionally draws abstract things on the sand, run here and there, or just stare at the waves.

Those sweet things made me feel depressed every time I saw the beach up close, every time I felt my feet touch the sandbar, felt my skin being blown by the wind, and saw how the waves in front of me rolled.

I'm out of breath, it hurts me every time I felt how beach was torturing me, as if I was being eroded by the waves.

Beach really describes how I am and all the things I miss right now, every time I feel I miss the beach but too afraid to go there.

Deeply, I really miss the times when I saw how calm the atmosphere was on the beach with the sunset that accompanied us.

My fear of beach was indeed the biggest obstacle for me when the longing came. Thankfully, there is a large building near the beach where I can make it a place where I can gaze at the beach from a distance.

That building is like a bridge to me, where I can see the things I miss without having to visit them again.

Same as a beautiful beach to me. The thing that I miss, will always be the most beautiful and comfortable place that I will remember, but not going to visit.

I always hope that all these fears never existed, that all the feelings that suppressed me would disappear, but the reality against it.